Careful... Careful, now...

♫ Apologize - Silverstein
http://profile.myspace.com/punkgoespop2 :) So excited! Not so much for Mayday doing When I Grow Up (*GAAAG*), but what can you do?

It feels right to be back here...But something is very different; very off. I can't explain it, really. Everything and everyone feels more solitary and independent and long and short and strange, all at the same time. It's just...weird. But I don't feel sad or anything. I feel very content. That's basically the perfect word. I feel just fine.

Saw Brian for the first time in forever the other day, and I am happier ever that I wised up. Honestly, I want to chock that whole thing up to a SERIOUS lack of judgment & temporary insanity. Good God. Even still he kept doing that thing he does, sounding like he's gonna be serious or deep and then fumbling like nothing else and being a jerk. And sending weird signals everywhere. "Hey are you coming with me to get that 7Up?" "This drink's for you". Ugh. He told Lea that he's changed now (in what respect, I have no idea), but from what I (& everyone else) can see he's more screwed up than ever. A bunch of us were discussing his insanity and I was talking and Nick was like "Gina is not impressed" or something to that effect and I was like "Guh". ...Anyway...

I've had random conversations with random people lately, which is sorta nice... Mixed up the people I've been spending time with... Which is good….but now I’m just jealous for attention, and that’s something that’s pretty consuming. But now more than ever I need it to be proven. It’s just never come easy for me. Or maybe it’s just me.